Friday, August 8, 2014

4 years.

I'm a little late on this post because well, 4 years ago was two days ago.

Confusing, right?

4 years ago (from two days ago) was when my husband and I married. It's been almost 4 months since he deployed with two more months to go until he comes back home (I'm seeing a pattern here...). This husband of mine that I've known for more than half of my life still manages to give me butterflies from the other side of this planet.

I miss him. So much.

Two more months to go.

Saturday, May 17, 2014

hello, old friend.

I am guilty.

I am guilty of neglecting this place where my thoughts are drawn. I’ve also been neglecting the photo-a-week project I set out to do. I’m terrible.


I’m doing great! I’ve started school again and have been pretty busy (and sleep deprived) balancing everything from spending time with Trina, attending to little Leo, keeping a 96% average in school, and everything else that life demands. Ariel and I chat just about every day (thank God for the Air Force!) so it’s almost as if he’s just at work only half an hour drive away.


I’ve managed to stay strong this far. We’re just about a third of the way through and I haven’t cried once. Maybe it’s because I have so much going on that my mind and body is always running about but I haven’t hugged myself crying in a corner yet. haha! I am reminded of him every day though. His razor still hangs in the shower, his toiletries still on the dresser, his winter gloves and hat still tucked away in the car, his coolers in the backyard, and the weather that demands BBQ all whisper his missing presence. Sometimes I catch myself feeling alone and really, really small. I daydream from time to time and I can picture him vividly enough that it almost feels like he never left. It also helps that we chat like we’ve always done.

A third of the way through.

I learned something about myself though. I always feared that I had become too comfortable and the part of me that survived through pre-Ariel times was long gone. I mean, I shudder at everything I went through and the girl that I was. I was a pretty tough little thing that was difficult to break down. Very stupid, but tough. Point is, she’s still here somewhere. A lot less stupid thank God, but I’m still pretty tough!

I hear Leo squealing. My time here is up folks! Until next time.. :)

Thursday, April 3, 2014



Trina and I’ve been having SO MUCH FUN with her school’s spirit week. It was wacky hair day yesterday! Can you tell?

Leo started out looking like my Dad but his features are changing! My Step Mom said that a baby will change at least 20 times as he grows and well, she was definitely right about that. 

Monday, March 24, 2014

On my own

Ariel received orders for deployment. As a military wife I’ve prepared myself for these kind of things but as the day draws near I find myself feeling unsettled. At the same time though, the thought of handling matters on my own –something I haven’t had the need to since I married Ariel—feels empowering. While the thought of doing everything by myself feels a little dizzying, this deployment of his is a new chapter in our lives and I can’t help but look forward to the challenges it’ll bring. The sudden demand to be brave as I gather the strength and courage to face this separation, I find myself feeling young again. I never thought stepping out of my comfort zone would feel so revitalizing.

I am ready.

Friday, March 21, 2014


_MG_8114 This is how I found Trina doing her homework earlier this week.

_MG_8139He’s the sweetest morning child I’ve ever met.

Sunday, March 16, 2014



Trina has always been quite the artist since she could hold a pencil.

Leo doesn’t mind belly time as much as he used to. Why? Because he can roll back onto his back whenever he pleases.